I Have Been in Colorado: Getting My Blog Ready for 2018

Hey, remember me? I disappeared again. I have actually been in Colorado since October 4th; I came over here for a friend’s wedding and I am staying here with them till after the November holiday. It’s been nice to get away. Nice weather, social interaction, a change of scenery, all the good stuff that I seem to miss out on in my 12×12 bedroom in California.

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Still Riding the Steroid “High”

My last day of Solu-Medrol (IV steroids) was Friday and I have been pretty surprised at how it has affected me. For years steroids have stopped doing anything for me besides leaving a weird taste in my mouth. This time around I had that “wired” feeling again and I constantly felt like I was running behind schedule to get something important done despite the fact that I had finished all that I needed to do. It’s miserable because it’s impossible to “wind down” for the night. I lie down to go to sleep but still I feel like I should be doing something and so I start creating a to-do list in my head for the next day. I should also note that being “wired” on steroids just means your brain (at least mine) is constantly racing, breaking every little thought down into more thoughts, and just generally overthinking things that I would have never otherwise thought of. I still felt so physically exhausted I could barely keep my eyes open! Yet I could not fall asleep for hours even after taking Klonopin and cannabis.

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LDN Day 10; Been Busy

I take my LDN right before bed each night (I have heard reasons for taking it either in the morning or at night and decided to try taking it at night) and as of this morning I have taken LDN for 10 nights. What have I noticed so far? Well first of all my dreams have definitely been really vivid and a lot of people don’t like that but I kind of do. It makes each night more “interesting”, it’s like free entertainment for 8 hours, an “escape” from reality. One problem is I started waking up at like 3am and at first I would wake up feeling just as ready-to-go as any other day so I was getting a lot done. I was good with that but then I started waking up at 3am feeling like… I had woken up at 3am…  Even when I would take my 1mg of Temazepam! I also picked up some magnesium but it’s a 400mg tablet which kind of scares me because magnesium is one of those supplements that too much can be really bad so I have been cutting them down to about 300mg. I sort of feel like it helps me sleep better and I have slowly been not waking up at 3am but maybe that would still be the case without the magnesium? I have no idea but I am happy to be getting a little more sleep again.

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