Hi, my name is Matt! I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis (MS) in August of 2010 at the age of 20. Since then I have always tried to advocate for MS patients and help raise awareness of this disease. For the most part, I have focused on blogging so that hopefully people can learn from my personal experience and make navigating life with MS a little easier. As well, I have not met too many people with MS who are my age so I have always hoped that my story would help others not feel alone with this disease and maybe even encourage them to be a little more open to talking about their own experience. Though I am not a doctor of any kind, I really encourage people to educate themselves to the best of their ability with whatever resources they may have so that they can truly advocate for themselves. I hope you enjoy reading my blog and my posts on MultipleSclerosis.net! If you ever have any questions or just want someone to talk to that can relate, feel free to contact me!
Ugh! I am in such a bad mood today! From the moment I woke up I was just… angry? You see, yes, I am sleeping way better but I still don’t wake up feeling rested (like most of us with Multiple Sclerosis don’t feel). In fact, I really can’t remember the last time I woke up and felt like I actually got the amount of sleep that I did; refreshed and recharged, ready to start my day! Pft… No… Just fatigue. Doesn’t seem to be secondary (the result of poor sleep or some other symptom) since I am actually sleeping again. So that tells me it’s primary (lassitude). Fatigue for no reason other than the fact that MS IS BS.
So, for the last few nights I have either not been sleeping at all or sleeping terribly. The other night I went to bed at about 9pm but just lied there till about 3 or 4am. Then I fell into a light sleep but around 5am I was right back up so I just lied there till about 6 or 7am. All of this despite taking 50mg of Benadryl and 30mg of Temazepam… My thoughts were just racing full speed about everything and nothing. I have not had insomnia that bad in a long time! The next night I switched from Temazepam to Clonazepam. I seemed to fall asleep a little faster but I didn’t feel like it was a “deep” sleep, I had such vivid dreams! So vivid that I woke up feeling like I had been up all night actively doing the things I dreamt about. So all day I just felt like a zombie, extra exhausted, my body wanted to sleep but my brain wanted to go-go-go. This messed with all my MS symptoms as well so I felt utterly terrible. Now, I didn’t even take Nuvigil (a central nervous system stimulant for promoting wakefulness in things like Narcolepsy) so I blame the Oral Prednisone I was on for keeping my brain “wired”. It wasn’t much, the dose was really low, I was just taking it as a taper for the Solu-Medrol infusions I had just done which ironically did not seem to affect my sleep at all but then again, I had cannabis edibles for those nights.