Monthly Archives: December 2016

A Weird MS Flare

I think I started to have a sort of flare on Monday night. I had a crappy day, nothing was going my way and I think that caused me too much stress. I started falling asleep watching TV and as I was getting up to turn everything off I noticed something weird. Because I was in that half awake / half asleep stage, both my eyes were not fully open. I stopped to notice that if I had my left eye open and my right eye closed everything looked dull like someone desaturated my vision a bit. Right eye open and left eye closed? Colorful! It was really weird. I have had optic neuritis flare up so many times since my diagnosis. My vision will never be the same again but this was the first time it had affected my vision’s color. Usually everything is just really fuzzy… I have even had episodes where while I am trying to fall asleep I would see quick/random flashes of white lights. Open my eyes? My room is empty, no sources of light but this? This was different than what I am used to.

I Think My Identity Crisis is Coming to an End

For the last few years or so I have felt like I was going through a bit of an identity crisis. I was not sure how or where I fit into this world and because I could not see my purpose in life? Nothing I did really felt fulfilling. My depression was already destroying my motivation to really do anything so this was just making it that much more difficult to get anything done. Although, now that I think about it, you could argue that the whole “identity crisis” thing was just the result of my depression but I really do feel like it was a separate issue for me. You see, I have never known “what I wanted to be” when I “grew up”. Nothing ever really caught my interest, I never saw something and thought, “THAT, that is what I am meant to do”. But as if that was not bad enough, in comes MS. Any time somone is diagnosed with a chronic disease like MS they are sure to reach a point where they begin to wonder where they fit in. They may stop being able to do some of the things they have always been able to do or eventually realize that they will no longer be capable of doing something they always wanted to. So you can see why I have felt the way I have…

What is Optic Neuritis?

Optic Neuritis is one of the more common presenting symptoms of Multiple Sclerosis (MS) and can cause blurred vision, color blindness, loss of vision, pain behind the eyes and even flashing/flickering lights. This usually occurs in one eye but both eyes being affected is not uncommon. Typically people just complain about their vision blurring and never experience anything else.

Exercise, Nuvigil, Zoloft, a Few Symptoms and Our Dog

Yesterday I got a “lot” of exercising done. First I did 30 minutes on the recumbent bike. Then I did 10 minutes on the elliptical which I decided to move into my room because I really want to step things up a bit in 2017 (no one else was using it). I still felt like I needed to just move so I went on a walk around the block. It felt nice to be outside without the sun melting my flesh but something I have been noticing for a while now is that sometimes when I walk my foot will skid across the floor. Not my toe like drop foot but the flat of my foot like I am not lifting it up high enough. I noticed this a lot on my walk so I have to figure out what is causing that. I think I remember something about that being due to a weak muscle but I can’t really remember. I also noticed just how poor my gate has become! I need to correct that… After that I still felt like I had to move so I decided to do some planks since it had been a while thanks to me having gotten sick. I was surprised to find that instead of tiring out at 1:30 minutes I did 2 minutes no problem which is far from impressive but definitely proof that I am experiencing progress which is motivating in itself! The one thing that has become clear is that if I push myself too hard I start feeling really dizzy so I have to watch for that…