Daily Archives: April 29, 2015

It has Been a Rough Day …

Wow. Today has sucked! I am going to keep this short because I just don’t feel well. My day started a little after 5:00am; I woke up with a killer headache! It sucks but it happens. I got up and drank some water and took some Advil because that is what I had in my room. I sat there for a while wondering if I should just get up or go back to sleep. Then I started feeling nauseous so I took some Zofran and laid back down. I stared at the ceiling as the nausea grew worse. I have dealt with nausea many times since my diagnosis but almost never have I thought “wow, if I move I am going to throw up” but that is all I could think. So I didn’t move. I just stared at the ceiling waiting fir… actually I don’t know what I was waiting for. Around 6:00 I was feeling a little better but my head was still killing me so I thought “a cold shower will probably help my head a bit” so I continued to wait because my super sensitive hearing let me know that someone was in the shower. I heard the faucet turn off and shortly after that the bathroom was vacated. I sat up, grabbed my “I am about to shower” stuff, and made my way to the bathroom. I turned on the shower and all of a sudden the nausea came back. I closed my eyes for a second hoping I could will it to settle. I took a deep breath and- nope. I threw up. I never loose my stomach to nausea! It made no sense to me! Maybe I drank that water too fast? Bad food last night? I have no clue but I didn’t care because I felt better. I took a shower and went back to bed. I don’t want to say I was exhausted but I definitely was not ready to get up. When I did get up a few hours later I felt so dizzy! I could not see strait! I mean my vision has been bad for the last couple months thanks to Nystagmus and Oscillopsia but everything was even worse! I could barely walk! So I sat down in front of the computer, checked my email, my Facebook, watched some Hulu, read a few articles and that has pretty much been my day.

My head still hurts but not nearly as bad as when I woke up. I just had some coffee and that helped my head a bit and gave me enough energy to sit here and write but I am still so dizzy I just… I can’t do anything and part of me wonders if this is my latest version of “normal”. Will I ever see and walk straight again or should I already sell my brand new car? Part of me really feels like giving up, I can’t lie, but then that stubborn part of me kicks in and I just can’t. I don’t know what to do or what I can do but I am not ready to throw in the towel as easy as that would be. By the way, I have been trying to get my blog back in shape so I have no idea when I will resume writing as much as I should because it’s a lot of work going through all the HTML and organizing everything. I hate HTML and now I hate it even more because I am trying to sort through lines and lines of code with this crappy vision. Anyways, be sure to read up on my stuff on multiplesclerosis.net.