From CO to CA; Moving Back

So, most of you know (or have figured out) that I am moving back to California. My parents are driving out here tomorrow and will probably
arrive Friday to help me move back to Cali since I no longer can fit everything
I am taking with me in two suitcases. I will miss Colorado and having my own
apartment but not as much as I miss my loved ones, a sense of security (knowing
I have someone there for me if I need them), and not as much as having a
neurologist who knows more about Multiple Sclerosis than I do (as they should).
So in one sense, it sucks, I will miss the weather, I got used to sitting on
the porch in jeans and a T-shirt in 30-degree weather. I will miss waking up to
see everything outside covered in snow. I will miss a lot but none of it is
worth giving up a few of the things I did when I left and so, I look forward to
my return.
When I
return in a couple days I have to call my neurology office (in California) and
let them know I am back so they can try to squeeze me in for a few tests they
don’t really want to do out here. I am sure I can use some Acthar as they also
will not give that to me. Actually… there are a lot of treatments, procedures, and tests they refuse to do out
here that we (everyone at my neurology office) know actually works. The thing
is, out here? They care more about how much money they spend than they do about
doing what is best for the patient (so it seems). That is not what I need when
you look at how aggressive my MS is and also take into account the fact that my
risk for PML is a tad higher than average. So before I return to work (that’s
right, they put me on a leave of absence to take care of this before they set
up a transfer for me) I have a lot of medical appointments to make. I think I
am allowed to get a new pair of glasses as well (much needed)!
I look
forward to being back around my best friend as I missed her a lot; more than I
ever thought I could. I look forward to spending the holidays with her and my
family. I look forward to seeing my cats, dogs, and even my fish again. I often feel like a fool for giving up the things I did; for not seeing what I had and how lucky of a guy I was to have them. There is a lot of stuff I miss about California (not the heat of course) so overall I
am happy to return. As I am sure I have said before, this was a good experience
for me. Leaving everything behind let me see what I was taking for granted and
let me see what and who is important
to me. I learned a lot. I intend to return with a little more “wisdom” and the
necessary experience to try to start a life out in Cali. Apartments are a tad
more expensive in California but I will make it work, I always do in one way or
another. Regardless of how long it takes I’ll be OK because I get to spend time
with people who make me happy again, make me smile and feel good when I am
feeling down; “home is where the heart is” and I think it is definitely
anchored in SoCal. When the heat comes back around (probably in like a week or two – just kidding – kind of) I will make it work.

            Things will be different; things have changed and they will continue to do so.

4 thoughts on “From CO to CA; Moving Back

  • December 4, 2014 at 1:15 am

    Good on you Matt, I hope the move back home goes well for you. Hot weather is the pits though, and it seems to be getting worse, all over the world. In South Australia, we've just started summer, and there's already been some stinking hot and horribly humid days. I love our air conditioner!

  • December 4, 2014 at 3:10 am

    Thanks, and yeah, Global Warming… Winter in California is like a month long at best and really it's not WINTER, it MAYBE hits 60F on special day which is still better than 120F… BLAH

  • December 23, 2014 at 4:19 pm

    Please tell me the name of your CA. Neurologist. I have been living here for 15 years with MS and have not found a doctor I like. Thank you

    • December 23, 2014 at 5:40 pm

      Click on the Facebook logo up top and message me, I would rather not publish his info online,


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