Daily Archives: December 9, 2014

Denial; First Relapse in FOREVER!

OK, I was in denial. It was a long drive home, 16 hours or so (but we did stop and stay at a hotel half way through), and it was a little stressful. More so because I was thinking of everything I had to do when I got to California; change of address, go to the DMV to get my new license, find a new car, buy new insurance, call everyday till an appointment opens up so I can get in to see my neurologist, switch my prescriptions to a pharmacy out here, switch all my bills to my new address, close a couple accounts back in Colorado Springs, update all my credit cards, open a new bank account, figure out if I am transferring my job out here or finding a new one, updating my SSI (benefits) information and probably more that I have not thought of yet. I got home late my first night and I did not sleep well so when I felt like crap all the next day I assumed it was due to that. The next day (yesterday) I woke up feeling better but by noon I was feeling worse than the previous day. I slept most the day and then hung out with a friend when I started thinking, “wow, I still feel horrible, what if I am relapsing?” Today I am already not feeling so great. Same as the last few days; dizzy, poor balance, extremely weak legs (well I feel weak everywhere but mostly there), no apatite, achy, just… crappy… Even when I scan my eyes to read what I just wrote I feel dizzy… I was hoping it was just a flare since I have not had a relapse in over 2 years but this has obviously lasted more than 24 hours so officially? It’s a relapse. I was in denial but I can’t ignore it any longer, I hate being so dizzy and I hate feeling like I am going to collapse when trying to walk up the stairs. Hopefully I can get in to see my neurologist quickly or at the least, maybe he can write me a prescription for Acthar