OK, as I just mentioned the other day, work is making my work in the MS community very difficult. I am always too tired to write, read, and respond to my many emails and messages. Today I cleared everything up so I finally feel somewhat caught up but there is still so much I want to write about and so much work on my blog that needs to be done. I have been able to do some writing for multiplesclerosis.net, which you can see HERE. I have been writing more often there than here because my blog is just overwhelming me; there is so much fixing it needs, updating, etc! I am not sure where to start. So I was thinking about it yesterday at work and I had an idea…
I think I am going to create a separate blog from Mattsms.com. Mattsms.com would be about me and my own experiences with Multiple Sclerosis and where I write about my progress in life. I am sure no one even notices the tags anymore but I would basically turn this blog into strictly “Progress Updates”. The new blog would be where I post anything about learning about MS and MS research news. Of course they would me interlocked so on this blog for example, when you go to the symptom menu, you would click one of the links and it would take you to my new blog. It just seems like it would be better organized and that way if people are looking to learn the facts rather than read about my personal journey, they could go there or vice versa.
Again I am still not sure how or what I will do, it was just an idea I had. THIS BLOG will never go away though so don’t worry!
Moving on; my weight. I have mentioned this very quickly here and there but now I really want to address it. Since I have moved to Colorado and started working I have lost between 20 and 28 pounds (10-13kg). I could not figure out why! Was something wrong with my thyroid gland? Was it an MS thing? I mean I know I have always had a crazy fast metabolism but 20-28 pounds in just a few months? HOW???
Well I decided to investigate and I think I know what is going on. First question, what has changed; the amount of walking I do. Before I got a truck I was walking all around town looking for a job and doing groceries. So that right there was a lot of calories being burned. Then I got a car and I expected my weight to go up or at least stabilize but no, it kept going down, why? Well I had started working in a retail environment, that could have something to do with it but still, THAT MUCH WEIGHT?
So what I did yesterday was pick up a pedometer to see how much walking I did at work that day. It was about 10 miles (16km)! Just in 8 hours so not even including all the lifting and random tasks like that I am burning about 2,000 calories in one 8 hour day! When I was doing almost nothing it was calculated that I should be taking in 3,000 to 3,500 calories a day to gain weight! Now I need 2,000 calories just to make up for work! So that is roughly 5,000 to 5,500 calories a day! I don’t have the time, energy, or money to eat that much! So I am really going to try to come up with a detailed plan and even pull a Hugh Jackman (when training for the part of Wolverine) and wake up at 4:00am to drink a protein shake and than go back to bed so that all that protein is just sitting there while I rest. I have heard that gaining weight that way is and isn’t a myth but have you SEEN Hugh Jackman?? I’ll do what ever I got to do. Then when I see my weight slowly going up and not down I have to start rebuilding muscle mass because A) it’s heavier than fat and B) I can feel a lack in strength. I think Costco is going to be my best friend because I am going to have to eat non-stop. Even now I am eating peanuts, which are high in calories and fat. Hopefully I can get in with a nutritionist soon to help me come up with a game plan.
A lot of people tell me “I wish I had your problem” but usually that comes from woman. I am a man. Men don’t want to be super skinny, so I feel weak and I also just don’t feel good about my appearance. Clothes no longer fit me and even on the last hole in my belt my pants still feel loose. I am very unhappy about this and I am actually self-conscious about my weight for the opposite reasons most are. So we will see what comes of all this soon enough, or so I hope.