I have been thinking a lot these last few days… I have been depressed over some stuff and fed up with my financial life. I am so sick of opening my bank statement to see “-64.62” and after I “fix” it I have a whopping balance of “$0.01”. I miss making over $1,000 a month; making a grand total of $750-$800 a month on SSI (benefits) is no way to live and sometimes it’s not even enough to survive. I am not sure how I will manage but I want a job. I need a job. There are people way worse off than I am who can do it so I should be able to do it too. It’s won’t be easy finding someone who will work with my MS when I am competing with people who can offer twice as much as I can but I told someone earlier today that “you can’t fail until you try” and then I realized… for me to give that advice out right now is very hypocritical.