I had a horrible day yesterday, my legs were killing me! I just wanted to lay down and let them chill out. My legs were so tight! I tried going for a walk to loosen them up but with every step it felt like the muscles in my legs were ripping. So my legs felt like they were tearing or being stabbed with a long needle every few seconds. I ended up somewhat regretting the walk idea and just wanting to lay down. But it was so nice outside! Cool, cloudy, and rainy, how could I stay inside??
I did feel really tired today though, I just woke up from a nap, forced up by my alarm, I still feel tired but if I stay in bed I won’t sleep through the night. This summer warming up crap is really depressing me though, it’s making me feel like I actually have MS and that is hard when just 2 months ago I was in Ireland feeling like I had no illness at all thanks to the weather I presume. I want that back… It made me realize that something here is messing me up, it’s depressing, frustrating… All I need is to move to a cooler area and my MS is as good as gone… So simple… But as always, my life is being dictated by money, money I do not have. Its not fair.
Anyways, I have been having a hard time writing lately, I am just so tired and feeling unmotivated in life. I am trying to change that but it’s just been hard so I don’t know… I will get back into the same as wuickly as I can!