I have encountered many types of pain in my life, some of which were my own fault, some of which were the result of an accident, and many of which were a result of Multiple Sclerosis. For the longest time this year I could hardly walk, in fact, it was just a few months ago that I could not even make it to the kitchen without my cane! Slow baby steps, I had to edge my way around until I became too fatigued or until the pain started radiating. Today I experienced a pain that I never thought I would miss, a pain that I used to hate, dread! No, I am not a masochist…
I had a dental appointment today and I decided I would take the regular city bus instead of Dial-A-Ride, after all, my “membership” is conditional and since I am doing well right now I figured I would try out some “normal” life. (Pft, I know, normal, what the heck is that??). There is a bus stop 6 minutes from my house and since I was having one of those “If it can go wrong it will go wrong” kind of days I showed up early. I sat and I waited wishing I had my headphones to help cancel out the noise from the busy street. I took the bus 2-3 miles (3-4.5 Kilometers) down the street and then walked the remaining mile (1.5 Kilometers) to the dental office.
After my appointment I looked up the bus schedule on my phone to realize that the next bus was not to arrive for 2 more hours… Instead of waiting around I decided to catch another bus a few minutes down the street and then walk the remaining 2 miles (3 Kilometers). This walk went well and then… it happened… the pain, a slight pain, settle, in my side, just below my rib cage. My side was hurting from walking… Normal pain? Non-nerve pain?? This was weird! A pain that I SHOULD feel, not some mystery pain conjured up by my brain. My side was hurting because I walked too much. My foot was hurting because all the walking was giving me a blister. This was not neuropathic pain, this was normal pain. I couldn’t help but smile.
It felt good because it felt familiar, normal and on top of that, it was evidence that I am getting better!