OK, I keep trying to come back online and return to life, I pop my head back in the door, then for one reason or another I take off again. It seems I just can not get my head on strait… I have been depressed… Mourning perhaps… Mourning the loss of my health… The loss of control of my life, of everything… I have just been negative lately but I think I maybe have a hold of it now. Trying to start the week off with a better attitude! I even cut my hair! Fresh start! Again!