Life tends to throw odd things at us, new things, unknown things. We as people tend to fear these things… It’s human nature to fear the unknown… What is even worse is that when we are afraid we make stupid decisions… Snap decisions. Fight or flight. Some of us throw our fist up in the air and some of us run to safety. Human nature… It’s maddening because when we follow this instinct we often get hurt either way, we often loose sight of what really matters in our lives because rarely do we really need to survive a situation… I am sure no one has a clue as to what I’m talking about, good, just think about it, how ever it may apply to life. I do not know what will happen but it sure is scaring me… Time to jump right??
It’s funny. a lot of us MS’ers are so quick to cut people out of our lives, often for good reasons too, but I am certain I am not the only one who has kept a select few of the people I know in my life despite the fact that they should be kicked out. Maybe they have been allowed to stick around for some sort of comfort? Maybe we never realized that there is better out there in the world? I do not know… Well I have been working on this issue lately. As you can see above, there are some missing photos on my wall… Well, actually, they are not missing because they no longer belong there. I took a leap and kicked a couple of people out in hopes of starting fresh. Maybe this will bite me in the butt but it felt like the right thing to do.
Life is speeding at me so quickly now, it’s like everyday I learn something new or see something in a different shade of grey, it’s almost hard to keep up! But I want more, more of this drug called transcendentalism… That is how it feels at least. So I am trying not to shy away, trying not to fall victim to my primal instincts that tell me “Run, run, run! Hide!”. It’s hard but it’s almost necessary, necessary for me to obtain that which I desire… So I try… Will I succeed? I do not know but I will try.
The past is but a ghost whom wishes to haunt our present, turn it into it’s purgatory where it never has to face the future, face the unknown… Well I am done mourning the death of my past and I wish to move on, I have suffered in this purgatory long enough, it is time to move on.
What is important to keep in mind is that when attempting something new, it will always be scary because there is always some unknown element to a new endeavor. Since it is new you can seek no definite direction from your experience, only recommendations. So simply keep your goal in mind and try your best to catch your mistakes as early as possible, take a few steps back when necessary, learn from those small mistakes, than continue on forward, one foot in front of the other.
“In the end everything will be OK, if it’s not OK, than it’s not the end yet.”
“All good things to those who wait”