OK, I mentioned the other day that the steroids were making me a very unhappy person and today it is even worse! Man I am so irritable! I am still catching myself say things I don’t mean but never in time to prevent it. Much quicker than I was able to many months ago though, in fact, I didn’t even recognize most my issue back at that time. Now I can recognize it and control it OK but it is eating me up inside! I just want to yell at someone but I have to stay calm! ARG!
My stress levels are going up because of all this roid rage so I have to be careful or else it will just set me back like the last couple of times I have been on Prednisone. Steroids can bee a good thing for Multiple Sclerosis or a bad thing if they stress you out or make you sick. I wish I could just live in an isolation chamber for a month while on them so I wouldn’t have to see or talk to anyone but myself so I wouldn’t snap at anyone or hurt their feelings OR anger them! That would be nice….
For now I am just thankful for my noise canceling headphones because they allow me to escape a little bit by drowning the world out around me when I am experiencing sensory overload! Going to take lots of sleepy meds tonight and listen to some classical music while I try to fall asleep. Got to do this right, it’s an art I swear!
Oh by the way, I keep forgetting to write this down but since it just happened I’ll mention it now. Been experiencing some drop foot randomly throughout the day! Might trip 2 or 3 times over the coarse of a day and this has been happening for a few days now. Right side. Settle but always alarming…. Well that’s it for now, need to try to wind down for the night!
OH OH OH, ONE MORE THING. Looks like I have had a bit of a tiny breakthrough with my photography! So I’ll talk about that tomorrow to keep you on edge haha! Goodnight!