Thought I Was Doing Better But Not So Sure


 Maybe I was just trying to make myself believe that I was doing better today and maybe I started to actually believe it but I’m not so sure… The other day I noticed that I had also lost my sense of taste. Fun. My vision has been crossing a bit as well but so far I’ve been able to control it. My inability to walk seems to be more of a result of the lack of ordination in my legs than the result of poor balance though my balance is still not that great. I am also noticing some coordination issue with my arms and of course my fingers… So I’m pretty useless right now and I have been going crazy for the last few days as a result of boredom. In fact, I finished reading two novels already! I’ve been doing nothing but sleeping, reading, and listening to music.

Though everything is frustrating walking is the worst  or should I say, trying to walk. I tried doing laundry today and that was no fun… I was getting around the house a little bit easier but it is still very difficult. Nonetheless I tried going out for lunch just a bit ago,  maybe dinner I don’t know, and it went okay but it was still kind of embarrassing. I am using a cane at the moment and I totally almost fell when getting into the car. I also can’t walk very smoothly, my legs either dart in front of me to quickly or can’t keep up with each other making my gate rather funky. Walking feels ridiculous but I wanted to get out and I did despite the fact that it was kind of embarrassing since the only person that has seen like this outside of my family would be my ex-girlfriend…

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