Feeling Better but No Appetite, Attitude Power!

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Well I don’t know what did the trick but I have been taking my vitamins, taking my happy pills, getting out more with some friends, moving around more, etc, etc and now I am feeling much better. I have been sleeping  a BIT better, I am not waking up all achy, I have not been as depressed, and I don’t feel as fatigued. I still feel  kind of irritable but not as bad… So I am trying to keep this phase going as long as possible so I can focus more energy on getting my wedding photography off the ground because I am ready to start supporting myself again! SO SICK of being broke!

So once again, I am going to mention one of my prime beliefs in fighting MS. Attitude. Getting out and being social has made me feel better on the inside and as a result I believe I am doing better on the outside. I feel more pumped up to get up in the morning (well I still sleep in a bit haha) and feel more energetic during the day, almost restless, because I want to get out and do something! I love the outdoors so having been able to get out into the mountains and what not lately has really helped me release some stress. All this is molding my attitude from a lump of pessimistic clay into a sculpture of optimism once more.

Now this is creating a bit of a paradox again though so I am trying to be careful… You see now I am motivated to get out and do more but I have no money! So now I am getting frustrated that I have no income, no job, and no car of my own! So now I am working harder to try to get that ball rolling but it is something that will take some time and right now it’s hard to be patient…I hate being the one guy in the group that can’t always even pay for his own dinner… It’s lame…

A few days ago I was able to scrounge up just enough for dinner but now I have like $1 in my bank account haha and the other day I was able to pay for dinner because I left the casino with a couple of extra bucks. No, no, I didn’t risk my own money, I got $10 on the slots for signing up for Morongo’s Club Card thing. But now once again I am flat broke and I hate it. I wish I had just enough to chip in for gas to go somewhere or something like that!

You know what no, no, no… I want more than that. I know I can work hard enough and I know I deserve to have enough money put aside that if I want to go out for dinner I can spend the whole $10 without worry. If I want to go up to big Bear or visit my friend out in Pomona I can throw the $20 into the gas tank without having to rearrange my entire month’s funding plan. I feel like I deserve just a bit of that and I am tired of waiting to get to that point! I need to figure this all out and soon! So I apologize for not writing as much but I have been so focused on trying to figure out my financial situation and how I can start making some REAL money as a photographer…

Oh yeah, about the picture above… I had a soda for the first time in almost a year… It was not as good as I remember it being… When you stop drinking it for a while it just looses it’s appeal when you try it again. Anyways it was a one time thing. I like not drinking soda and that’s how I am going to keep it!

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