Once again I am single. Can I blame this one on MS? No, not really. MS no doubtingly didn’t help but I can’t blame this breakup on MS alone. Truth is my Ex and I just weren’t a good match for lack of better terms… We had our issues, we worked through as much as we could, but in the end, if it’s not meant to be it’s not meant to be… And… I don’t think it was meant to be. I won’t get into the details because that’s between my Ex and I, no one else.
I just want to say that much like before when I was first diagnosed with MS I am going to take this time to worry about me. To focus on my health and my life so that I can get things going strong, build a foundation. I never fully got the chance to learn how to deal with MS on my own as I always kind of had someone “with me” during the learning process so I was actually learning how to deal with MS as a couple rather then as an individual. Now I will focus on me being an individual again so that I can clearly work on my life and my life alone… I think this is the best thing for me right now…
Either way, I wish it didn’t have to be this way but not everyone finds that perfect someone in time to work through all the troubles of life with right away… I wish we could have been stronger and been there for each other but our lives were pulling us in two different directions, we just weren’t compatible anymore. Part of me wants to be mad, be a jerk, and hold things against her but I am not… I won’t… She has a good heart and will do great things in life, she deserves better then that, we both deserve better, we just aren’t the right ones for each other and so, I hold nothing against her.
To anyone out there having a hard time with their relationship all I can say is this:
You have to do what’s best for YOU. PERIOD. It may not be easy but you HAVE to make that decision otherwise you are just hurting yourself. You HAVE to do what’s best for YOU.