Well, my balance is still getting worse and though I don’t know if my cognitive issues are getting better, worse, or at a standstill, I can say for sure that they are still a persistent issue. Today my balance is really bad though, I am getting really clumsy again, I feel like I am going to trip over my legs when I try to walk but so far no falling, just horrible gate.
Alright, I need to update my mental health situation as it seams to be getting worse. Cognitively I have not been doing so well. First it was just poor short term memory, something I have always had problems with that has been getting worse lately. For example, I find it hard to remember who I had certain conversations with, what those conversations were about or if I even really had them or not! I also seam to be running really slow up there in the head, I find myself completely blanking out especially when I’m tired. This is frustrating because I used to be such a “quick thinker”. It’s like there is absolutely nothing going on in my head, I simply read the information my brain is presented with and dispose of it as soon as I have read it. I don’t know, hard to explain.
Well, today I suffered a bit of an “emotional breakdown”. Happens to everyone and as strong as I try to be it happens to me too… Yes I may come off as one with a strong positive attitude but every now and then life gets the best of me and I crack, falling into the darkness of depression.