First of all I just wanted to note, though this is a progress update I wanted to include this article under my “mind over matter” category because this experience is worth special recognition.
Yesterday I seemed to be getting around okay, my balance and walking was still a little off but for the most part I was okay. Vision also seemed to be a little better, I think, specifically my peripheral vision.
What I want to focus on is the effects of emotional stress on physical well-being. Last night, after a conversation I had with someone who is very dear to me, I became emotionally distressed… I tried to take a cold shower to help calm down and relax before I went to bed but my mind would not stop racing. I had many negative thoughts expanding within my mind, they grew like a cancer about my heart and soul, I let it devour me…
Luckily I fell asleep pretty quick, but not without the help of Tylenol PM and melatonin… Unfortunately I did not sleep well, for my mind was still dwelling on my emotional stress, I dreamt vivid dreams all night of negative and painful occurrences that never happened but were so vivid that when I woke up I was unsure of what was a memory or a dream, this of course started my day off with more stress and depression…
Everywhere you read about MS it is emphasized that stress is a major trigger of symptoms, today I’ve experienced firsthand the truth of this fact. My walking is definitely not as good today as it was yesterday along with hand eye coordination and control of my left hand… I’m trying my best to not let this frustrate me because that will only cause more stress and make everything worse but I have to be honest, it’s not always easy to relieve stress and clear my mind, I have much learning to do on that self-help aspect of my life.
So I’ll end with some obvious and repetitive advice, AVOID STRESS OF ANY KIND! It really will affect your physical well-being, whether you are currently fighting an exacerbation or enjoying a period of remission, stress is the arch enemy of an MS patient. I plan on writing a much more in-depth article on the relationship between mental health and physical health soon, hopefully I will have more technical information to back up my article, I have much research to do but hopefully I will have that up for you all very soon.
Oh yeah, today I injected into my left thigh, it was much more painful than anywhere else so far! I actually felt the needle this time, hopefully it was just a bad spot on my leg, maybe if I try further up it won’t hurt as much, We will see tomorrow… But to any one who is dreading self injections, I can assure you, it’s not that bad, don’t let this scare you, I am really skinny and pretty much have no fat so for someone like me it’s no surprise that it hurt a little, I probably hit muscle but again, it’s not the end of the world.